Jam Of Thoughts

Emotions as a gay man is fear.  We are who are in the deepest recesses of our minds. Hearts and identities. In my mind, its not about what you look like or what you do its about who you are inside.

I didn’t change myself, I just found my self.  I am no longer attracted to men rather.  Yes, I can proudly say that I am a homosexual. No one has imagined us, what we face in our real life. Why can’t we be together? But one thing I want to say is,  I’m always happy, that I’ll always be positive, that I’ll always be smiling , know the reality before you get involved.

I  was raised by a single mother who made a way for me. She used to pick garbage door to door. I also went with her but never asked her why this ? She just said one thing which was happiness for that life is about not where you start,  it’s about where you are taking it. And now I also do the same job which brings happiness to me. I go to a mid day school then I go for rack picking. I am leading my life the way my mother taught me to take. 

I didn't  change myself, I just found my self.  I am no longer attracted to men rather.  Yes, I can proudly say that I am a homosexual. No one has imagined us, what we face in our real life. Why can’t we be together? But one thing I want to say is,  I’m always happy, that I’ll always be positive, that I’ll always be smiling , know the reality before you get involved.

Even if we are poor we have a dream. Though we are rag pickers, we also have a story.  As it said “We cannot judge a book by it’s cover”.  Hanging our bags walking by the streets seeing and capturing the things which an ordinary human cannot do. Standing behind the school gate and seeing the school kids who are studying inside the four walls doesn't  know the happiness of learning  from roads and knowing what the city is all about. Yes, we are learning day by day by our deeds. 

It's starts something like this, A girl with whom I fell for. That girl who took away my glance within a span of time. And never made me notice any other girl. But the way she reacted made me realize that  she is silly and mature girl who use to hide her feelings behind her one broad smile. But somehow I was afraid to say, what was their in my heart. She won't understand that "Love at first sight". She might think that am a jerk, who is stalking her. Yea that's true I was stalking her from day one till yet. Am jealous to share my girl with any one. Numbers exchanged from strangers we became friends, and from friends we became close friends. And the day came when I said what was there in my heart <3.  I'm not looking for somebody  With some superhuman gifts. Fingers crossed and concentrated on her just waiting for that one yes. Which my ears are like waiting from a while. And it came like that she was going to reply the give the answer what she thinks in h...