Jam Of Thoughts

I am crushed from inside, I am happy because I have a companion named Sorrow who is always there with me. This is me in Moody shadows looking down, thinking what on this world am for? I don’t want to be alone.  I am screaming into emptiness. 

Emotions as a gay man is fear.  We are who are in the deepest recesses of our minds. Hearts and identities. In my mind, its not about what you look like or what you do its about who you are inside.

I didn’t change myself, I just found my self.  I am no longer attracted to men rather.  Yes, I can proudly say that I am a homosexual. No one has imagined us, what we face in our real life. Why can’t we be together? But one thing I want to say is,  I’m always happy, that I’ll always be positive, that I’ll always be smiling , know the reality before you get involved.

I  was raised by a single mother who made a way for me. She used to pick garbage door to door. I also went with her but never asked her why this ? She just said one thing which was happiness for that life is about not where you start,  it’s about where you are taking it. And now I also do the same job which brings happiness to me. I go to a mid day school then I go for rack picking. I am leading my life the way my mother taught me to take.